Ekk!!

Gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh!!!

I WAS LOCKED IN THE TOILET T.T

Suspense. Ish, no where in the world, but the TOILET.

Thank God I was at home, and it is not any stinky public toilet with shit smell everywhere!!!

And it was just cleaned up. Phew.

Almost thought that I need to stay in there half a day =.=


Thank God it was dry, cos i sat on the floor and I wanted to sleep zzz.
Very tired la after school. And my cleaner was awesome cos she cut my hair =)
And she learned 2 years in that profession already! Wohoo, I had bangs now, I looked so kiddish.
Some say nice, some say weird, and some say like lady gaga (wtc)..
And some say look like Pharaoh.. I dunno la, but I was really bored over that old look..
And my hair very less, so it kinda like, cacated a bit lol.

Hey why am I talking about my hair lol. Well cos she dried my hair and it looked very straight so I don't wanna sleep earlier.
Was dead tired man. Imagine I could sleep in such a panic situation.
Hmm.

Well thank God my bro was there. If not I dieeee lol.
Tired many many ways, he was really a great help.
Even though knowing that he was a very lazy, i-don't-care type of guy, but he was willing to get me out from there.
Thanks!!

Tired many ways. My bro chuck in some cards and paper at the hole, where the latch was in place..
Useless.

And my sis was "thoughtful" enough to pass me my phone.
And say that the phone can teman me while I am trapped in that stinky toliet!!!
What kinda sis is thisss???

Well at least she passed the scissors.
But wtc can scissors do right. Ish.


At last my bro smashed the door knob.
And I was just leaning bside the door.
Ear drum almost burst.

Using the hammer he tired so many times,
thank God I manage to cabut keluar from there. =.=


And my dad and mum were working, sobs.
Well at least my bro was there if not i really gotta stay in there for HOURS.



But just now the door man came.

And he would be surprised at the state of the doorknob hahahah!!

Heya

Wanted to ditch blogging for a week.
Even though nobody really sees this boring blog. Lol.

Gotta study again. ZZZ.
Cannot stop studying not till another 3 more months.
After that, wohoo. Can do all the crap crap stuff.

Really into blogshops now.
It is really handy when it comes to it.
Especially when you don't need to walk so far to buy stuff.
Admist of postage fees, if you get into good & affordable blogshops, it is really a benefit.
Speaking about SPM, couldn't go out so frequent anymore =.=

Spent around rm70 this month. =.=
Presents presents presents... So many birthdays lately.
Haven't bought Mei Shan's gift yet.. SOBS...

Really gonna bankrupt soon..
Gotta put my money somewhere my hands couldn't reach!!
Cos I know where I put my money and my hands will go all itchy grabbing for it XD
Living with only rm10 in my purse....
Unless I blindfold myself and throw my money somewhere haha.

Guess birthdays gotta stay postponed for a whileee...

Really too pokai ardy...




I want to buy so many things but no money. Not fair.

Sigh. Gotta snap out of it before I go emo. What to do. Sigh.










Exam sucks. Ew.


Toodles =)

=(

Hmm. Just had the thought of this tiny winy flashback.
My heart sank so deep when I think about my f5 life.

Well, I anticipated so much from this year, when it was 2008 still.
Ish, getting emo d =(.
Who doesn't wish to have a blast at their last?
Regardless of what you may be.
A senior at primary, secondary, college or uni even.
It is saddening that my passion for high school has become something so ... nil.
It was so different the past few years.
I loved high school all this while..
I learned and experienced so many things while I am here...
Not just only God, but still, the friends .. Sigh..

And just recently, A guy from 5J just passed away from cancer.
Even though I don't know him but still. You cannot help yourself to feel a bit sorry right?
Hmm.
Everyday when I wake up, I feel so heavy.
I hate the feeling, when you need to overcome that wooziness every morning when you are forced to wake up every morning at 6am. Lol.

Sigh. Cannot help to feel sad actually.

Even though my class is noisy but still, it is not like how it was back in form 1.
Form 2 till 4. Was nice.
Form 3 super semangat to go school despite of all those annoying Saturdays. zzz.

But I have a feeling that I will regret later.
Haha, not appreciating what I have now.
So many people are complaining about college life =(
And also, NS.

Hmm. Well at least there is still a CF in school.
The only thing that could give me specks of hope.
Thank God for a CF still =)
If not it would be such a bore.
Hmm. The fire is just not there. Like it has been in void or something.

Habakkuk 3:17-18


=)

In the state of =)

Today was awesome =)

I never expect school to be fun. For me, it is quite boring at the least.

Today, was quite dramatic XD. Yet, it was funny in a way =)

Finally, got Wayne to talk. LOL.

He ran when I saw him. Coward.

And I chased him XD. Like a school kid. I wanted to enter the classroom LOL. So chicken la he. So syok to kacau. No wonder why Ron like to prank him like gila lol.

So innocent yet cute muahaha. And met his "brother"..

Oh well.

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Today CF was really meaningful. Aka (Christian fellowship)
Well It is still not legal yet. But anyhow we had it in school, from 12.45 to 1.30 I think.
T.T I was forced to leave early.

But, I was really encouraged By Yi Ting's faith and her passion for God.
She is a living testimony. Seriously.
I knew her last time, and it was shocking to see her now, as a christian.
Sharing her personal experience with God.

Seriously, it was so touching. I almost broke into tears when she talked about her past..
I could see moisture in her eyes. She voice was shaky when she mentioned about it..
Her dad was a drug addict, knowing how her dad died, it was really heartbreaking..
Imagine if your dad, or anyone that is, being one, and how it affected her.
Sigh, I don't think that situation is fathomable.

Talking about how her dad struggled, and how she tried to get stronger.
Now, looking at her, at her testimony, I cannot believe she went through so much.
And God was gracious enough to save her, and her whole family...
When I thought about what happened to me in the past, I don't think, any of my problems would be in comparison with her =(

Finally she was saved, imagine how life changing that is.
Amazing, isn't it?
Btw, she had a beautiful voice!!
Even though my Chinese cacated but thank God I could still read some of it. LOL.
And it took me 30 mins to type a Chinese sms. LOL. It has been years since I typed one.

And when it was my turn to share, I cannot believe I cried. LOL.
Don't know why, I was emotional when I talked about what I went through the past few years...
And this year, stuggling with depression..
And I felt a sense of peace after sharing it with them, like how God brought me though all those things...
I lost my friend once, I lost what was precious with me before..
I was lost, but God found me =)
And I am thankful for my past. I don't remember it because it doomed me, but I remember it because I want to remember how God has brought me though the toughest of situations. And How HE brought me out of it.

God is real. He is there. As long as you allow him to do his work in you, surely there is always a solution in every, singly aspect in out lives..

Believe in Him, ask, and you shall receive =)

It was really a very meaningful day for me.. Because I saw how God change one's life...

And yeah, she told us about how God saved her, when she was robbed.

While she was on her way home, with the bag on her shoulder, the motorcyclist just grabbed her bag, and she was dragged on the road. O.O

Imagine how painful. She was not only dragged, she was rotating here and there while she was being dragged more then 4 houses across the street..

At the same time, her watch was tied together with the bag..

And at that moment, she thought she was going to die...

I mean, if you were in that situation, I bet you would think it was the end already. With scalded skin and aching bones. OUCH.

But yet, she thought "Jesus, please save me" In her heart. But she wasn't confident God heard her..

The 2nd time she shouted the same thing, miraculously her watch unlocked itself from her hand and she was freed!!

Amen!!

And she was saved. Even though with scars plastered on her body, but she was grateful that God made such a breakthrough in her life..

After that testimony, I had strength to face even greater problems in life...




Just believe. And I will do that always. Amen, Lord =)


Toodles =)

RANDOM.

Finally! I bought something that I had waited for YEARSSSS!!





Wee~ Maybelline's brand new Gel Liner finally released =)

I wanted to wait till my bday comes .. so my daddy can buy...

But I cannot wait. LOL. Staring at the advertisements made my heart cringe =(

I dreamed about this thingy for a long long time ... Finally it is mine now!

And, it is wayy better then eye liner. The pencil one. Trust me, its texture is smooth and dark that you could apply a clean stroke with ease. Ahahaha.

This is quite a random post.

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Ah hem. Went to Dewan Pustaka last sat. It was okay I think. The food and the environment was okay. It is just a Little bit boring in between. Aka, ceramah =.=


Me and Kai =)


Everybody was requested to act. Er, in any of the drama that we learned in F4 and F5. Surprisingly the students of the back class were willing to be cooperative. And most of the skit they were in charge too.

Sigh, We would have won if we added dialogs in it. A bit short. And boring thanks to the gurindam, seloka and pantun slang's =.=


Me and Mei mei. I Look like some sort of ..... LOL.


Xin Hoi was so sooo funny! He was the only guy that was shy to take pictures (Excluding Wayne). And he was smart that we sent someone to take his picture! LOL. That guy was so natural and as if doing something with the phone. Lol.

But only the side view though. After that he covered his face 24/7 when the conspiracy was revealed. LOL.





And Wen Koiu's group won. Sorry for the cacat resolution & quality. Er.

Plan to ask my dad for a proper camera if I get Good results.

Tee hee.


A very brief post about what I did the past few days.

Since the pics were all stucked in the phone. Lol.


=)

Addicted to Boa's -- I did it for Love (American Debut)

EXUBERENT!

Finally...

After endless and endless nights of studying this...

Forced to actually. Sigh.


Long long time ago...

Mr.Roy (aka add maths tutor) had this program. It runs every single year. Each student are required to pair up with 2- 4 peeps in a group. And after that, each individual is assigned to teach a chapter of add maths that had not been taught before.

Me , eva, yeng yeng ( The other yeng yeng, You ask the current yeng yeng she will know who am I talking about XD) and Darshini were assigned to teach CHAP 8-- PROBABILITY DISTRIBUTION to the whole class.

Phew, damning, it is. You know me, my add maths, how I failed with only the mark of 15 at the start of the year zzzzz. Well that time I wasn't myself alright. I was really emo the beginning of the year. Lol

And how I enjoiced after passing my midyear. I am going to get an A2 this percubaan =)


Back to the basics, with much frustration and anxiety, I forced myself to actually BELIEVE in myself. Well, I gotta do it right? I can't back off giving lame excuses saying that I am infected with H1N1 disease. Lameo. I cannot bring down the whole team.

Sigh, thanks to Elaine's group that proceeded to do first, two weeks ago. Learned some tricks from them lololol ( Not stealing k)..

I called and really try to understand as much as possible..

I used two weeks to learn everything. Ish, prob is really confusing!

Thank God I manage to pull it through. 8.1 was okay, but the normal distribution part is a bit confusing. Blame my reference book for such misleading information. Lol.

Example, with the range of P(-0.2<0.4123)> suddenly pop a equal sign underneath =.=.

Confusing. The modulus one made me puke. I cannot sleep right after I knew I cannot figure it out.

And I asked William. He is a UNI student that is studying statistics. But to him it is like SUPER fast. He finished it within mirco seconds. But still he cannot answer my question HAHAHAHAH.
Maybe because we used the MSN method instead of the face-to-face method lol.

Cos actually, there are many unanswered questions about the graph. SPM format easy bitsy la, but at times, it is quite confusing. The signs and everything, and William say he is in the process of DISCOVERING it. Lol.

Asked Brian about 1-P(x=10). Thanks ! But never get the chance to discuss about that particular Q due to the lack of time.

And Ronnie for lecturing me physics for 2 hours. =.=

How can he remember everything without the book????

And he knew almost everything.

From designing to RC to studying to physics to advertisments to templetes.

AND TO MAKE UP!!

Shocking it is, he knew what is a GEL-LINER!

Salute! Shame on girls that don't know. Ish. ish ish.


Back to the story, we had to finish everything within 2 hours. That was really nerve wreaking.

Seriously, because you are chasing after time, you cannot explain everything that time.

Yeng yeng was really nervous, practically facing the whiteboard 24/7. Lol.

Eva was okay, but it was a little bit short.

And it was my turn. Ish, freaking nervous weiii!!

Sigh, so embarrassing. Do I really need to blog about this T.T...


Ok, discussed about some details that Yeng yeng missed earlier. I didn't realize that I talked too fast. Is it? Cos maybe I didn't realize it when I am nervous. Lol.

Lucky thing my mind didn't go blank. My tongue was tied a little =.=



It is fun when you get the hang of talking in front of a crowd.

When I pick on day dreaming people that talked in MY class. muahahah!!

Explained about the probability of a fair coin =.=.

Common sense was void at that time, till i need to take a coin out of purse for DEMO!

When I was erasing the calculations on the blackboard, I really HAD NO IDEA how the duster just happen to fly across the classroom.

No idea, when I was erasing, suddenly, the duster was out of my hand and it flew across the classroom that almost fell on yeng yeng's head. How????

The whole class cracked up. =.=.

And I was giggling like a nuisance with embarrassment. Er.

But anyway, It was a relief that everything had passed =)

I did it! I spoke in front of 30 people! I taught something that I had not been taught by anyone before! And add maths was my worst! And I did it! Yeah yeah!!!

It was awesome. It was all worth it. All the bad dreams, all the phone calls, all the frustrations, all the prayers, all the endless nights.

And most of all, God, that gave me this wonderful experience to speak up, and to actually teach in the class =)

Confidence, was desperately what I needed. But God gave me all that.


THANK YOU!!!


THANK YOU MR.ROY even though your marker pen was one of the worst quality ever seen that dries up every 10 seconds =.=

And for the comment :" You did a great job, but you were really nervous. You speak very fast when you are nervous you know. What is your problem?"

Well at least I knew my weakness and I can be even better in the future!!!

FOR THE TEAM MEMBERS!!

FOR THE HOPELESS REFERENCE BOOK!!

FOR MY DAD THAT FINALLY AGREED TO BUY A 570 CALCULATOR FOR ME!!

FOR BRIAN AND WILLIAM!













And for myself. For believing in myself =)





My mom =)



=)

All smiles =)

Feeling like?

Well, just thought of blogging something different for a change..
Apart from that, this is just what I've been thinking all this while..
Just feel like to share my thoughts here instead.

INSECURE.

Does this sound familiar?

CONFUSED.

WALKING AIMLESSLY.

REJECTED.

What the ****

Again, mind you.. I AM NOT EMO!!
It is just.. that I face people with all these problems lately..
And at times, it reflects to one word. ME.
Most of the time, I meet these problems face to face..
When you feel sad, you don't know how to describe how you really feel.
Unconsciously, at times sad is the only thing you knew.
When rejection, insecurity and frustrations are in your shoes, you just didn't know that you are feeling like THIS.
In fact, people think :" Really? How does it feel like? I had never been like that before".
Really? Think again...

Well, I believe at times, I am like that too.
In a certain situation, feelings are all mixed up. It is just too hard to understand why..
Confusion is part in everything, but it is just that you don't think you are. Is it? lol.

The reason why, I thank God for my mistakes, my past, my failures, my sadness, and every single aspect that forms the word "LIFE"...
Is simply because... I find joy after I realized, I had learned something new..
The more I experience it, the more sinful I know how the human nature is..
Sigh, but of course, I do feel worthless at times, thinking, is this worth it??
Am I worth of forgiveness? Even though I am DAMNED to sin again?
Do the same bad things again... Why I couldn't be better?
Why I cannot be just.. just.... Go out from it, instead of staying in it??

I think I am becoming a little bit EMO now. Lol.
Hmm, these random thoughts.
At times, you cannot overdo something, nor too little.
Pride, results in arrogance, ignorance.
Humble, results in self-condemn, guilty, and simply anything that starts with the word "LOW"
Does negative feedback happens?
Positive feedback?
Pituitary gland, the posterior and anterior glands?
WAKE UP CLAUDIA!

OMG.

Is this biology or bloggie lol. Sigh.

Well I do feel at times, we need to achieve a balance internal environment LOL.
Take it mentally, and emotionally.
It is important that we don't ponder too much about it.
Because from bad, it will be become far WORST.
Can imagine a small tiny winy thing can bring you DEPRESSION?
Well I had that experience before.
Sometimes I do wish I can be like niga higa and crack stupid jokes at a 24/7 basis.
O.O

Yala yala. Whatever.
It is a really a unexpected rant to come out from me all the sudden.

Er.

Yeah I am back to normal mode =)




And yeah, I am going to NS T.T.
It seems that Girls are going to outdo the boys.
Because more girls are chosen.
zzzzzzzzzz.

Excited? Maybe

I



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Was



Chosen



for




NS!!! Stupid khidmat negara!


Boozai~ My class around 15 people were chosen,
And that is a HUGE number.
It wouldn't be surprising, if all form 5 students are forced to enter NS.
Woohoo, at least that seems fair right. Not fair if not all of them could enjoy the fun ...

Lol.

I am cruel. I know =)


Those who brought their phone to school were victims. Cos many peeps were using their phones for the NS confirmation. Hp pokai lo. LOL.

Chee soon was again jumping up and down when he didn't kena.

Emilia, sek yin, Sara, the indian gang, surprisingly Sha sha was not chosen. Shu teng was. Haha.


Well I don't really know how to put this. Even though my dad had the liability letter for NS (Meaning with that letter you can cancel NS). But I feel like to go, weird huh.

Quite happy actually, excited. Many people cried when they came back because they were unwilling to return home =.=.

Well I will go wherever God sent me. Hopefully it would be somewhere near, Like Semenyih, and bla.

And I wanna be in the 1st batch cos I don't want to waste my time enrolling for college and bla.

Well it sorta ruined my plan for the rest of the year. I wanted to have a part time Job and earn a little bit for Good.

So I can have a wardrobe makeover. LOL.

And I just lost my lash curler. Sad sad...

Need to replenish my worned out, empty boring old purse with a sum of rm1 inside.

It costed me rm30 you know


zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.



Hopefully abby and josh are feeling better.

Worried for them =(...














And, uh, I forgot what I wanted to say, hmm, lemme think...


Oh yeah, english club had a very interesting program today.


We went to JUSCO and see movie during koko lol.


Niahahaha, even though transport and ticket problem was a frust. Lol


Pn Norizan's kancil is like a car full of junks. I saw a bottle of shampoo there =.=

Dhinesh said she bathes in the car LOLOLOL.

Didn't manage to see transformer though, it was fully booked like mad.

Saw Chee Soon and the gang there. Lol. THEY GOT TO SEE TRANSFORMERS!!!

And during wed is half price...

Unfortunately, ice age 3 just launched today so we had to pay in full today =.=.


It was kinda stupid..

Like this

Convo one

*Wind blows*

The two rats:"What is that sound? Seems scary".

Buck:" It is the wind, it is talking to us."

The two rats:"So what is it talking about?"

Buck:"I don't know. I don't speak wind."

Lameo =.=

And the snunk was sucked into the dinosour's nose. I meant the hole. Disgusting.


But it was funny. Might watch it again with the 3D effect. Sure suspense. LOL.



1st time koko see movie. Ish.

But pokai d la. lol, need to pay pn. Norizan tomorrow! Lol


Toddles =)