Feeling like?

Well, just thought of blogging something different for a change..
Apart from that, this is just what I've been thinking all this while..
Just feel like to share my thoughts here instead.

INSECURE.

Does this sound familiar?

CONFUSED.

WALKING AIMLESSLY.

REJECTED.

What the ****

Again, mind you.. I AM NOT EMO!!
It is just.. that I face people with all these problems lately..
And at times, it reflects to one word. ME.
Most of the time, I meet these problems face to face..
When you feel sad, you don't know how to describe how you really feel.
Unconsciously, at times sad is the only thing you knew.
When rejection, insecurity and frustrations are in your shoes, you just didn't know that you are feeling like THIS.
In fact, people think :" Really? How does it feel like? I had never been like that before".
Really? Think again...

Well, I believe at times, I am like that too.
In a certain situation, feelings are all mixed up. It is just too hard to understand why..
Confusion is part in everything, but it is just that you don't think you are. Is it? lol.

The reason why, I thank God for my mistakes, my past, my failures, my sadness, and every single aspect that forms the word "LIFE"...
Is simply because... I find joy after I realized, I had learned something new..
The more I experience it, the more sinful I know how the human nature is..
Sigh, but of course, I do feel worthless at times, thinking, is this worth it??
Am I worth of forgiveness? Even though I am DAMNED to sin again?
Do the same bad things again... Why I couldn't be better?
Why I cannot be just.. just.... Go out from it, instead of staying in it??

I think I am becoming a little bit EMO now. Lol.
Hmm, these random thoughts.
At times, you cannot overdo something, nor too little.
Pride, results in arrogance, ignorance.
Humble, results in self-condemn, guilty, and simply anything that starts with the word "LOW"
Does negative feedback happens?
Positive feedback?
Pituitary gland, the posterior and anterior glands?
WAKE UP CLAUDIA!

OMG.

Is this biology or bloggie lol. Sigh.

Well I do feel at times, we need to achieve a balance internal environment LOL.
Take it mentally, and emotionally.
It is important that we don't ponder too much about it.
Because from bad, it will be become far WORST.
Can imagine a small tiny winy thing can bring you DEPRESSION?
Well I had that experience before.
Sometimes I do wish I can be like niga higa and crack stupid jokes at a 24/7 basis.
O.O

Yala yala. Whatever.
It is a really a unexpected rant to come out from me all the sudden.

Er.

Yeah I am back to normal mode =)




And yeah, I am going to NS T.T.
It seems that Girls are going to outdo the boys.
Because more girls are chosen.
zzzzzzzzzz.