Where is your heart?

Not long ago,

I was a proud grade 8 student that practiced super gangho-ly for my practical exams.

I remembered having Chermaine around, and we would both play the piano for hours.

Literally.

Usually she will come over and display her skills, most of the time presenting fresh new pieces that I've never heard before.

Thanks to her I converted from being a pop genre pianist to a classical one.

Talking about being influential. Tsk.

I remember annoying my neighbor so much that he could sing the songs I play.

He was not good at hearing nor memorizing songs.

He wasn't in anyway music inclined (Sorry for the insult)

But simply because I played the song over and over for 7 days and dunno how many hours.

When he come back from school - Rachmaninoff

When he is having tuition - Rachmaninoff

When he is eating - Rachmaninoff

When he is playing football - Rachmaninoff.

The same freaking song played over and over.

He should have switched on the mp3 and blast his ear off for 24 hours ... and 6 months? Hehe

I was so crazy over Liszt, Rach, Chopin and all those crazy hard songs.

When my tutor came over and introduced me to another song, I would say, this song hard a not ah? Harder than rach? Hard a not huh huh huh!!

Until she got so pissed off at me and she said : "Never mind, you choose on your own then".

Hahaha. Those were the days.

And ... I DETEST DOING THEORY!!

Like seriously ok. Sometimes I get so pissed off being stuck at one Q ... I would erase the date my tutor wrote on the paper. (Meaning no homework)

I successfully made her a smarter, more innovative tutor as she used pen to indicate my homework. Ugh.

Busted. Cannot do how?

Don't do loh. Cannot do loh.

Cannot escape kena marah.

Then I cry.

Then I tell mommy that I WANNA QUIT!!!!

She scolded me like mad.

I will grateful if in anyway she developed high blood pressure.

Because of me you know! So touching ...

I always didn't understand what she taught me.

I just nod my head like the solar doll?

(Btw there is no such thing as a solar doll. But a doll that nod its head all the time. Generated via solar power, idunnowhatitiscalled )

Thus even though how hard I tried doing, I just don't geddit!

I don't look forward for piano classes anymore.

Always complain and dun wanna attend :(

Cut long story short I was only a few points from passing.

Passing 65%, I got 62%.

Ugh 3 freaking marks!!

But I did quite well for practical cos I practice like crazy one.

Hehe.

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End of the day I think, it is really your heart that drives you through success.

If your heart lies on what interest you, you will fall deeper in love with it.

You will be willing to find time to do what you love, and work hard to master it.

I love the practical part of piano, I trained and did well.

I didn't like the theory part of piano, I trained and I failed.

The same should apply on what course you take.

Because of my parents and peer pressure I used to strive for what had the big bucks.

Money, get rich, enjoy, full stop.

People nowadays don't look at what truly interests them.

They opt for something that has a promising future.

But how far could this take you?

When it gets tough, can you still hang on?

Some people say why don't I do something more ambitious.

Be dentist la, like your brother and become doctor like your daddy.

I feel quite sad that they ask this kind of question cos they don't understand what truly interest me.

I know that what I am going for - does not have a wide range of job opportunities.

Pilot grads in Malaysia remain jobless for more than 2-3 years.

Because there are insufficient vacancies for these people.

Nutrition and dietetics do not have a very good one as well.

But, I know I have GOD to rely on!

I will pray and be faithful to Him!

I know he will open doors for me ... he will provide..

I will put my trust in Him.

Just believe and be patient.

When everything fails, God doesn't. :)

Thus, I hope that people will search their hearts,

And pursue something that truly interest them.

Because worldly things will fade away...

Nah as a gift for reading my rants,

Here is the fast version of Rach prelude in G minor!

Super love this song!!

P/S: Cher wanna come play again ? Hehehe