Crushed.

Do you know how it feels like when your whole world is falling asunder?
When you are drenched with sorrow...
I am telling you, it is not a good feeling at all.

It is not the trust that is broken. Sometimes, it is simply the expectations and hopes on someone that you love -- taken away.

Even a best friend does that. When you hope and depend so much on her/him, they will make us disappointed still.

Sad isn't it? Well I think sometimes there is a reason behind it, but the feeling sucks.

The least expected person you wanted to be hurt from -- not your lover, but your best friend.

I think sometimes when we hope too highly on someone, without realizing it you are actually putting yourself on the line.

Do you know why a lot of people say:

Jesus could be anyone in your life. Your best friend.

You will NOT understand just how true these words are unless --- You experience it.

I guess I learned my lesson, is not to NOT trust someone, but to hope and expect too much from them.

Especially promises -- don't make them if you cannot keep them.

It sucks when it is broken. I am dead serious.

Because you take it personally when the word "promise" is in it....

Sigh, I guess this incident is good in a way, because it makes you realize how important God is in your life.

God will never be too busy, will never get too bored and brood over our problems.

I think I am learning to put my mutual trust and expectations on HIM, the one that I would learn to hope and expect more in life --- the flawless one.

Even though it is saddening, but it is joy to me at one end.

Because I realize just how important to be close to God. Not the intimacy, but trust, love, hope and expectations.

And I realized, in any relationships, either love or not.

It is not wise for one to love more than the other, but for both to have equal amount of love, hope and expectations.

It is impossible to achieve a 50% fair -- clean cut.

But it is a give and take process, where one is exceeds, it will be lowered.
And when the other lowered, it will be lifted.

I think I seen this verse in the bible, I cannot remember where, but it says, when one is lifted it will be humbled, and the humble will be lifted.

There will be times you will be disappointed, and there will be times you will recover.

The mutual relations of both sides must have a equilibrium. It will come up and down.

I guess I am done here.

Twist and twirl,
Get the bug?
Baby,baby;
I get your bug.

Baby,Baby;
You do not charm me much.
Why do I say so?
Freckles on your face says yes.

Baby, Baby;
You love to blush.
I wonder why,
You always stay that way?

Baby, Baby;
Why do you swell?
Is it because,
Polka dots is what you prefer?

Baby, Baby;
You have a cutting edge.
Regular you say?
You are special in every way.

Baby, baby;
You don't end that way.
With dark circles,
You look sexy that way.

Baby, baby;
I ache daily to meet you much.
Such unrequited love,
It hurts me so.

Baby, baby;
Don't go away.





Because baby,
You are my type.

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Super zha dao right? I know lah.
My baby is bak kwa.
Simply cos CNY is going end.

I am going to miss it a lot.

Clues in this poem:

Freckles and swell = The little dots on the surface of the bak kwa.
Love to blush = Well it is blushing alright? (red)
Cutting edge, regular you say = It is cut into regular pieces.
Dark circles = simply cos it is black a bit lah at the edge.

Totally random,
Hope you have a lame day today.

Love,
A little less lame.

Update.

You know sometimes good stuff costs more.
You know the drill,
You gotta dump the bill.
Materialistic, no?

All these years,
Concealed in the box.
Now,
It is time to discover a whole new world.

Make a wish,
Majolica Majorca.
Oh my,
It is Shishedo!





Oh!
Fairy Godmother did grant me this wish.
Unsightly still,
I shut the door.

Why you say so?
The condition states ;
I am not waterproof,
I am rm41.90.

With furrowed brows,
Fairy Godmother make a thought.
This time,
With the weave of her wand,
She grant me another wish.



Jittery Glittery is the case,
My eyes widen with a pleasant surprise.

Je tadore, Je tadore.
She says,
Make a choice.

Premonition states,
It might be too much.
Conscience states,
It is just right.

Just 43.90,
A little more then 41.90,
Why not we give it a try?

I chose the middle one,
with a pink hue.
With a slight nod,
Jittery Glittery is in my hands.

Out of this world,
Is there somebody who still believes?

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Haha this is so random! By the way, sometimes good things do cost a little more. The quality, texture does stand out with standard. I frequently doubt to get this done, because I know it costs a little bit too much. He he, but still do not overspend yea :)






I bought the middle one! Hahaha! It is really really good I tell ya :) It is not too chalky, and easy to apply! A manual is provided for technical use too! But you have to use it with a fair amount, because it is kinda shiny. Do tone down a bit with the amount of colour used, because it will look gaudy.

Sigh, I have to save up for this :





The eyeshadow palette is made of win! I bet this is one of the best eyeshadow because it is highly pigmented. Many eye shadow out there tend to fade, and the colour is much, much lighter when applied. I am quite disappointed with my Revlon because the colour is superrrrr light. Ugh!

Btw one small palettle is rm58 each. O.O

P/S: Almost everything is recommended there? :)




And .... Anna sui blush *Screams*
I am dying for this sob sobbbb...
Wanted to go there and see it myself but I chickened out. No way lah, I need somebody like Ginny to pui me :(


Next time (Maybe a century later), I will get this :




Not too sure about Maybelline though. But Mineral foundation is good because it is very natural.
Unlike compact powder that sometimes make your face looks too light. More like "white". Lol.
Can be applied after a layer of foundation. Not too much :)


And, I notice BB cream is not really good.
I will prefer individual usage of foundation. I think that is better.


With love,
Miss Fabuloso.

A new piece.

This song is made of win!




Is this piece available? Anyone?

I am hooked by Autumn crotus.

Btw cher, the way they play is very fast and different.

Go check it out.

An unexpected prompt.

As the title was written,
An unexpected prompt was inspired,
At the least expected time,
Something great happened.

Oh, how long?
Did I wish earnestly,
So it will not pass me by?
Please, I want this, not that!

Was that wise per se,
Should I, should I not?
Exasperation was on the way.
My, oh my.

But deep inside,
Each step painstakingly taken.
Daily I wished for desired,
Till the day I die.

Unknowingly,
Events backfired.
All given was just a few lines,
And it was simply written,
My grace is sufficient for thee.

Heart savaged,
Pondered on the answer.
Heart cringed,
I cried why.


Several moments passed,
Again, an unexpected moment arrived.
Adrenaline present,
Wondering what was revealed.

At last,
Only a few words came by.
Just so you know,
He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Darkness unveiled,
In a sigh of relief,
I simply said 'ah',
With a saccharine smile.


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I told many people I was "dead" for the past 2 weeks.
Rotting at home like an empty shell, seriously!
It was as if I have no desire to do anything,
The spirit of laziness was there all the time.

But again, as this prompt was told,
I thought tomorrow will be another boring day.
But I belittled the skills of another,
Which motivated me to go further.

Haha, I can be cept really easily.
Like losing passion of many things, including my relationship with God.
Pass few weeks was dead boring.
I didn't read the bible, because I was engrossed by the things in the world!

During my usual online routine,
By reading peoples blog, you can be moved too!
That is what happened to me...

So, don't stop typing about HIM.
Don't let pride and acceptance get in the way!
Even your cbox look empty, like no one is watching...

But many will be touched, seriously.

Just like how I was.

And I knew why I was an empty the past few weeks.

Because in Ecclesiastes 3:11, it was written,
" He has made everything beautiful in its time".

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well." --- Matthew 6:33.

God Bless.

The anime comeback.

The anime comeback.

It really has been sometime right after GUNDAM, I was obsessed with other animes.

Simply because it is not easy finding good ones.

Cos nowadays got a lot of hentai/ hamsap type. lol

Moreover, during that gila gundam period SPM was just around the corner. haha.

Well seriously, if you want to look for good anime,

There are times you are bound to experience,

The worse ones too.









Vampire knight: Not a very recommended one, simply it is just too dark and emoish. I didn't get to see all because the sight was too unbearable.

What more Yuuri is Kaname's sister! What the ....?
Right after they have this blood sucking ritual...
Then she regain her memory.

WTH.

This is worst then berzina okay!

This is the Sumbang thing! Yuck.

I told darell not to puke too :)

What more it is not completed yet lah!

Code geass: I know! You must think that I am crazy!
I admit it is good la, very plot twisting.. uhh...

I just cannot stand the end where everybody ....

Ending sucks!

If I can overcome the shock value, I might see lah.

Cos actually it is nice....

But I stick to happy endings all the time.


Hmm, so far, not many are on my list now...





The best so far is ...




Skip Beat!




I can't tell you what is it about, because the shock value will be gone :)

For those who see...

This might or might not shock you

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The stupid pig is kissing her!


Even he is handsome, but he is a pig (credit: ginny choong).


Sigh, but the more I look at it...



Fuwa Shou aka the pig looks handsome. At some point...

On the other hand,






This guy is much better :)


Love love tsuruga ren! Muah muah!


Dear viewers, you think?

Hmm, It seems that this anime will be turned into one of the live action dramas.
Like the legendary Hana yori dongo aka Meteor Garden, that successfully did korea, taiwan and japan adaptations..

But I heard it is going to be the Taiwan version first~!
Jerry Yan = Tsuruga Ren
Kyoko mogami = Ariel Lin

Hehe, I cannot wait for it to come outttttt!!!

YEAH HAAAA!


For all people of all generations,

this is a


MUST SEE!



Gaga for Skip beat!


Thank you Su zanne for being the ever so realible anime critic!

P/S: The manga is better, and the characters are so neatly drawn. The pig and Ren very handsome in it hahaha.

If the anime is reality, I bet the both of them will be equally famous!