Final.

I knew how much I wanted this but...
Sigh, I cannot believe SAM has ended.
I still remember last night, I was telling myself,
" A little bit more .."
56 pages of chemistry, I hung on till the very last page.
I dunno how I have the willpower to study till 2.30 am lols.
From 8am till 2.30 am.
Haha, never had such endurance too :)

Really thank the Lord all is over,
Despite of my downfall, my results and everything..
End of the day no matter what I get,
I know I get everything I deserve.
I know God will give what is best for me :)
I know there is a second chance for me to do better in uni.

8 dreadful months!
Who say cannot take SAM march intake??
I did it!
My teacher always scares us in class, saying that A levels is so much easier compared to SAM.
The question so straight forward and blah blah.
I remember those days, so many were afraid ..
So many changed course..
That phase was quite scary, with all your peers leaving you..
Two of my close friends left too.
And I even thought about leaving.


And how my mum told me about my physics.
If I really cannot cope, she say she can find another course for me to enroll..
I remembered how I was called into the FAS office (because I failed my physics), how Mr Yap console me about my study methods.
How he made me cry!!
He really had a way with him, when he talks to you, you will feel like pouring everything out.
Cos everything he utters about your life is straight on!!

I knew I posted a lot of emo post about giving up. ==
Yalah, I kinda feel stupid posting all those stuff.
But I am so much stronger now.
I did the things I never expect myself to do,
I did a freaking crash course that I promised myself not to do (In the beginning of the year)!!


Failures and disappointments.
They are like my best friends.
Every exam paper, assignments and projects,
They are bound to haunt me.

But I am not scared of them anymore.
Lols, like seriously!
Immune already, cos see them too much ==
You have no idea how badly I did in my studies this year.
Never occurred in my past life!!

But I cannot believe that I did it!
My gosh, those 8 months was like forever...
Now, it is gone!!

I have made friends that I never expect myself to have,
Cos I was always planning and choosing who to be with.
But I was wrong,
God does crazy things!

I changed from being close to this to that.
Who knew it was someone completely out of my mind.
Lols, I would never had been close to Sin Ling,
If my other peers didn't leave SAM.

To be honest I feel more like myself when I am around her.
I don't need to strike a conversation all the time.
And we will both laugh about random and silly things.

And all other sam peers.
Lol, come to think how much we were strangers in the beginning was scary.
Now we all much closer :)

I thank God for this humbling experience,
and I feel so proud of myself for not giving up.
I feel so much stronger and confident about life :)

Celebrating my 200th post with JOY!!

P/S: I have no idea how to delete 1MB worth of assignments in my pc. No, I think more than that. All my hard work :(