Be still.

I have a ever growing feeling that I am going to encounter one of the biggest problem in my life.

My future.

Future is something uncertain, and it changes by the decisions made in everyday life.

Imagine, a mere choice that is capable of changing everything in your life.

That's the power of choice.

Through personal experience,

My future is very unpredictable.

When my instincts tell me its gonna be this, it end up getting something else.

But recently, I have a feeling that I am going to take up something that I always do not want to do.

Something that I promise myself not to do.

This 'premonition' is growing stronger each passing day.

No matter how much I want to deny it, the feeling gets stronger each day.

That is - becoming a doctor.

I bet I have told everyone I knew, that I would never be a doctor.

Because the experience is tough, and it is not very promising as doctors are growing rapidly in the country.

Meaning, demand is not very high - thus less wedges?

Yeah, money minded in a way, and my parents do not want me to do it either.

But lately this feeling is growing stronger.

And I have a very strong feeling that I am going to be answered soon.

That is, in youth camp maybe?

I don't really know for sure,

but the answer is - soon.

Since that day when pastor Micheal said about serving the community, and another Micheal uttered about love Cheras and what it does,

I felt compelled about being a doctor.

It is time for us to give back, and do something for the community.

Which I believe each and everyone of us have the ability of doing.

I think I have been passive for long enough,

this time I really want to serve God.

I want to serve the community.

When I saw the pictures of the residents in Sri Johor (I think),

I felt that there is a burden for me to help them.

All of us are so well fed,

Yet we complaint about the things we do not have.

Those people led the lowest end of living.

Imagine having maggots and cockroach eggs in the pantry,

Sewage disposal leaking in your living area - that flooded your bedroom?

Goodness, these are just a few instances.

What Micheal said was way worse than this.

Strange enough,

My heart is not really afraid of being a doctor.

Only my mind that is thinking too much of the risks and the difficulties of being one.

There is peace and reassurance,

that God is going to help me to go through the hard times.

If this is God's will for me, He will definitely give me the strength to do it.

I am certain of that!

There is a purpose why I go through the crash course of SAM.

Because God want me to get prepared.

He wants me to be ready, because the process of being a doctor is definitely going to be a challenge.

Thus, when your future is dim and uncertain,

you only have to do one thing.

Be still, and put your trust in the Lord.