Awesome !

"What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? All his days his work is pain and grief ; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless."

Ecclesiastes 2:22-23.

This entire verse, was how my life was the past few months. I lose so much of faith in God. Somehow, I just don't have the will to believe in His word, in His ability to change anymore.

Well that happens when your life is all messed up, when you think that God's purpose in your life doesn't seems to be there.

When people advice me to seek the Lord and pray, I was reluctant because I think it was impossible?

But seriously, it is not God that turn His back against us, it is us that turn ourselves away from God. This happens when we lose faith and become dubious, or either, too busy with work.

When time passes, you will feel that you are losing the "connection" with God. You feel that you are very far away from Him. Then, you will lose faith, and begin to question his purpose for you in life.

"A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without Him, who can eat of find enjoyment?"

When you turn to Him, when you seek him, when you believe in him ...

He will give you the joy that you never experience before.

What God seeks is the heart that is sincere, true and just.

God does not see how holy your are, how many good deeds you have done, how pure your heart is, but a heart that is willing to seek Him.

The main obstacle that keeps us away from God, is our lack of faith and trust in Him.

Whenever when you feel that you are losing faith,

Confess unto the Lord and tell Him,

that I want to believe, I want to have faith and I want to trust you.

I want to love you, like how you have loved me. I want to declare praises unto you, for you are same yesterday, today and forevermore.

When you repeat these words, seriously you can feel his presence sinking in.

You know at that instant He is right there, and he is listening.

It is a wonderful feeling ... more then just pleasure, more then sheer satisfaction...

It is something very hard to describe, no -- it was heavenly.

Slowly, the uncomfortable sensation in your chest will go away.. you feel like you are freed.

Haha, might sound spooky.

But God is real!

So, whenever you want to give up, when you feel that your world is tumbling down..

Seek the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Gbu :)

Praise the Lord!