Sigh

Ok.
I know I doing something really wrong,
by blogging late at night (supposedly studying for chem quiz),

and should be doing maths assignment.

But I cannot help to type and vent out my frustrations,

Again.

Now my mood is super duper emo.

Each time all I can think is only regrets,

more regrets, frustration, tired.

And all the crap la.

And with the majority, our batch did really bad for EVERY quiz, Every report, and every freaking thing we do also at the bottom one.

All the lecturers black face ady.

Waliao my chem teacher scold teruk teruk wei, no face ady.

My mental strength is sinking soo low..

Due to influence, syllabus, assignments ....

And up till now more then 10 ppl in my class consider of changing course.

That is considered as serious already.

Watching so many giving up... giving up....

Now I know why people change course, why people keep changing again and again and again.

Why people take up art stream,

Beating around the bush? Seems unnecessary..

Wait till you are in deep poo poo like me.

Feel like to give up so many times..

Again and again,

time is too short.

1 hour one chapter.

One week 9 hours of lecture for each subject.

One day freaking one hour break.

One day 12 hours of lecture and tests NON STOP.

You only have 2 days. 2 DAYS to cover what teacher said in class..

Next day, QUIZ or test.

I hate coursework.

@#$%^&*I

English! I use to love you.

Now I hate you.

Proposal, research project is really a PAIN.

Sometimes you need a few days to finish.

Want to not procrastinate but you have no choice but TO.

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It is not because I dunwan to study but I have no choice but TO!

Teacher accelerated at a crazy speed I tell you.

Physics ... confirm fail ady lah.

I doubt I can even get a D.

What is that 10A's?

Now when you go up to pre U.

All these achievements are just empty..

Where you have to start all over again.

Sorry might sound harsh,

But really beh tahan ady.

Considering of taking up law.

If my semester test suck very bad.

Doubt I can get TER 65 also.

That is how bad it is.

Ok, have to go study.