Do you feel loved? I do, I do =)

I know I should not be doing this!
The BIG day is tomorrow, yet still.... *smirks*
Hey, I studied okay! 3 hours straight...

After this short little post I gotta study, again.

Phew, It has been sometime since I have this kinda "major exam" Feeling...

=.=

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Hmm, to tell you honestly, being a Christian myself, I don't know how does it feels like to appreciate God's word myself.

I mean, not to say that I abandon it completely, but still...

You would wonder how people were moved by words,
by mere words,
without looking so deeply in the context.



Just this morning, when I flipped through the bible,
reading as usual...
I just felt very weird, like I am going to break out or something.
Seriously!

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?
Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us."

Romans8:35-37 (Advisable to read the whole context for better understanding)




I went still when I came across this verse.
A sudden pang of weirdness was circling in my chest.


Oh shoot!


There were tears!

My gosh, it may be really weird to you, but for me, it was really personal.
Cos I had been so busy with seminars, studying, tuition-ing...
I was lost in a sense that my life was only about studies.

I felt horrible for the past month,
going to church late, I thought I missed out so many things in life.
what more my spirit was aching to loved again.

For some, God touches differently.
Cheesy as it is, it was something really, really shocking for me..
Because I didn't expect myself to burst into tears just reading a few words.
Pondering that verse in retrospect, I felt that I did not deserve to be loved,
because I was horrible.

I withdrew so far away from God,
due to the exams...

I really stopped praying for a while already.

Yet, God was gracious, and still, he blessed me with the tinge of passion at the very last moment.

Thank you God, because my prepective about a boring bible will never be the same again.



Btw, read abigail-chan.blogspot.com, because it prompted me to praise the Lord shamelessly!!


Oops. I gotta study again, time is running out!