Numb.

This is the weird part.

You know what?
I was hit by a motorcycle today.
When I was on my way walking to the bus stop after buying some stuff from Times Square.
I looked left and right before I crossed.
I was sure. I was certain.
I did not see any moving vehicles at my sight.

Suddenly, I fell backwards.
A throbbing headache stroke.
I was hallucinating. Am I?
Am I in deep slumber? Living in the world of my own?
Am I in the reality?

Yes, I cannot deny. Even though how desperately I tired.
From the start of this very month.. Since then..

I was blur. I didn't notice the bike that hit me earlier.
I fell backwards. I was like, huh?
Is this really happening to me?
When I got up, thank God, this lady there was kind.
She picked my specs for me. My vision was clearer since then.

That motorcyclist was busy checking his ruined bumper.
Haha. He did not even bother me.
Seriously, I was oddly calm.
I wasn't in a state of shock, not even an adrenaline crush.
I just got up, thank God he did not bang me in purpose..
He did not kidnap me or what..

My phone was in perfect condition. Not even a scratch was found.
My bag was still there, my purse.
Thank God there was no fracture! He still preserve my life..
My fate was not on a hospital bed.

My elbow was wounded.
A few scratches.
And my butt hurts!

Haha. I did not even call my parents or anyone.
The bus just came after that whole thing.

I went in.
It was so ordinary, as if nothing had happened.
My elbow was bleeding.
I didn't care.

I was numb.

Because, I rather choose to be hurt physically.

A cut, A bruise.




Rather then, being pierced inside.

Smashed, crushed, damaged.

Yes, that is the word.

Damage.


The hurt I bear for months, is more then how it hurts during that moment.

I forgot how to think.

I was paralyzed.


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-Claudia*Lav-

I am currently addicted to:







RAISINS! Bwahahaha!



Nyahaha, I just got the bug lately..

Ate almost the whole tub by myself...

I even brought it to tuition. Swt..!



I am getting fat!

Sheesh!


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Had pumpkin soup last week ^^

Love the taste, I bet I wasn't the only one having refills!

Thanks Amanda! Always being so sweet and caring..

Thanks for "bou tonging" for everyone!





Refills anyone?



Me & Cher.



ME & DARLING~!

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Our current base was bombarded by f2 CG..

It seems that their population exceeded 35 people..

So we were FORCED to shift into a smaller area..


Very small and hot!

Haha. Who cares? I still love my cg anyway!

Thank God I never go for add maths seminar that day..

If not I would be missing a lot of interesting stuff already!

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Gotta stop coming late for service ..

Every time gotta sit behind..

My bro and sis were too chickened to go upstairs! Kaka..

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Last week's lesson was really interesting!
It is about getting out of our comfort zone helping other people..

1. Visiting other churches.
2. Turning daily gossips to gospel! *i love this*
3. Washing toliets? O.O
4. Visit old folk's home
5. Distribute candies in hospitals.
6. Create a forum/ discussion board.
7. INVADING THE F1 & F2 CG!

Haha, really cannot wait to do the last one!
Since they are still a new batch of youths.. sure very shy shy one^^
We are going to kacau them! (Hopefully they won't get culture shock^^)

Lovin' cg lessons week by week.

Irreplacable^^




Hearts during Valentine's !


Btw, there is a new guy who came to our cg last week!
Adison Wong is it?
Oops. Hopefully I did not spell it wrong XD
WELCOME TO CG 2009! Hopefully you would come more often!

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!@#$%^&*()#$%^&*()_


Ah! Gosh, really cannot wait to eat those songs!

Delicious!

I am so going to play those rare pieces!

Hopefully my aunt will photostat for me =.=

So bad leh, don't want to borrow me.. Sobs!

Cannot wait to play Francis Poulenc's three novelettes!

Was shocked to hear that he was a 20th century composer O.O!



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If you don't mean anything you have said,

Isn't it better off not saying any of it?

No?
--

Claudia*Lav

Sick!

Sick!

Sick!

SICK!!!





Sick worried over theory exam... it is NOT that I don't want to read..

It is I got NO TIME to read!


March 16 will start..

Then, the 1st week of march debate ( If I am chosen. IF)

Then, 2nd week, school exam..

The next monday, EXAM STARTS!

I really really don't want to fail.. waste all my money and efforts..

Plus all the junk stupid homework piling up...





God, Help?

Just please. Help.

I really don't know what to do leh...




-MiNG-

Reverting back?

Sigh, back to my emo mode again..

Guess that bug couldn't get off me..

Happy, sad, happy, sad.. Guess how your mood changes, life still have to go on right?

Really trying to cope up with everything..

Homework piling up like some sort of virus or something, I cannot find a cure for it!

Sigh, sad. My hand almost break due to excessive amount of writing.. from 6 to 9pm non stop!

P-LEASE! I haven't finish add maths yet.. Whoa lucky I finished maths this morning, if not kena kad merah leh. Ishhhhhh!

Sheesssh!

!@#$%^&*()_


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Allow me to release this.

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And it simply says : I am so frustrated right now.







And my stupid school is going to have inventsi, meaning a test just a few days before my theory exam..


THEORY!


I didn't have the time to even read.

I didn't understand.

I still cannot do.


How? How?


God, it is for me to fail, please do tell me.

So I can stop doing this for now..



Just.. just... Give me the confidence, the strength. Please?

I am dying here.


P/S: This is my most emo blog ever.

Sigh.


I am so so so so frustrated.


-MiNG-

Therapy?

Phew.. what a relief!

Finally I can get a hold of myself for 3days.. Tee hee =)

Today was fine =p. Had a really grrreeaaaattt time!

Bla bla...

Crapping! I lurve crapping!

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Went to church today.. finally^^ Reunion with my sisters! Miss them a lot^^
Btw, Abby, I am really happy for you^^ You E-boutique thingy is improving.. Glad that you had positive reviews & great recommendation!

Support support!
dr-pizzicato.blogspot.com
Hopefully you will stock handbags & purses real soon!

2day's session was more towards ice-breaking..

Did some couple of stupid stuffs!





All of us were banana splitted by Tommy..
Our group did this crap out of james imagination..
From diamond shape to fish shape then to square shape finally to piramid shape.
Then we realized there were still so much time left!
Add here add there the piramid evolved into a catfish!
I really don't know what this is.. swt!

BTW, this thing suppose to be a lantern.
But, the thought of putting candles never pop up my mind eh. Ish.
He was confident! Haha, but working with him and a few bunch was fun, and yet, really really interesting..
So many silly ideas!


The crowd was huge!
I find that this week's yf a lot of people..
As usual I came late.. no place to sit! Was forced to sit far far behind XD
Wanna sit itself also very difficult..


Later then.. we had eating competition..

I heard that Beatrice was scary XD

Zanne munching hard!



O.O I bet this is even harder!

Ahahaha! Don't kill me k? You made history!

Eventually we didn't win.. But it was classic being a spectator!

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And I am really excited next week, because a very special friend of mind will celebrate her 18th birthday!



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Tadah! My bbf -- iikiu!

A very very very very happy birthday to you "even though it is not the actual day"

But I am really looking forward to throw a party in school for her next wednesday!

This would be the last year, I really wanna make this unforgetable..

She is not just a friend, but a very, very special friend.. My bestest friend..

All those times.. all the smiles.. all the sadness..

She was there =) My true friend, even though time will bring us apart, but I promise you, I would never ever forget you..

I love you so much^^

And once again, thank you so much, for being there every single moment when I needed you. Even though we are not in the same class, or even had the time to talk during recess..

January was like hell to me. And you know how much I sobbed on the phone, how much I suffered..

Thank you so much for being me truest, bestest friend..

I believe that God will reveal greater things to you^^ Keep your trust in him, and he will lead you all the ways through trials & tribulations..





Cheers to our 5 years long-lived friendship!







Even though I saw a very super duper beautiful bag at Queenspark, But I think nothing could be more meaningful then this =P Really hope you will love this ^^


And also, thank God that he kept me save when I was taking a bus to Queenspark alone after tuition. Alone eh, and you know the bus stop near carrefour maluri very quite d..
Yeap, I went there all the way just to find her a "teddy bear" purse.
Since she hates hello kitty and insists a teddy bear purse. Swt.
Went all the way to QP and find that purse.. because a lot of factory outlets could be found there..
The lovely lace there damn big wei!



But I could not find any.. sobs...

All the purses looks very old, and the selections were limited..

I end up buying a rm7.90 diy box to put the photoframe plus a book inside as my personal pressie to her..




Cute leh! Blek, not for you d! Perasan!


And the journey back was pretty scary too..
Even worst.. I WAS ALONE WAITING FOR THE BUS!
Very scary.. that place near highway d.. and there was a guy repairing car keep staring at me.
Ekk! Freaky leh.. waited like mad.. a bit paranoid actually XD
Thank God a malay woman was there, she teman me.. and she told me about a lot of thieves incident.. very ganas eh...

Haha, anyway, really thank God that the bus came! Even though I need to cramp for a bit..

I never bid her farewell... Sorry!


I was actually quite worried about what the FMB would give her..
Lucky thing shu teng got hers!

Just me and kyli!


Thank God my dad wanted to go for shopping at 1u 2day!





Haha, this slipper was really random.. Cos really don't know what to buy already!

And it was surprisingly affordable!

Haha, I cannot find any nice purses or bags there.. so it is just this!

Hope you like it! I prefer the white one though.. sadly enough it was out of stock!



And I bought something else..



YEAH! A long awaited K.A.T.E eyeliner! I was shocked that it has such a big amount of discount even though only 10% was stated there!

And it was the LAST ONE! Thank God!





But another good friend of mine is also having her birthday soon..

And she loves K.A.T.E too.. I am quite confused about giving this away..

Cos I love K.A.T.E !!!!!!



And Majorlica & Majorca.. cannot wait for Lavshuca to be in stores!

Ahh!


I heart Jap cosmetics!


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It is just me?

Hmm.. it really had been some time...
Since I really got into this XD!

Btw, really feeling better now.. much much better..
Even though I am still in the process sustaining all situations..
Thank God I learned how to smile =)
Still not quite used to 2009 yet.. still finding the niche... still fitting in..
It is really not easy.. when flashback come emo d.
Haha, sometimes happy la... But I love last year still, even though it was the worst.
Everything had been a dream to me.. I really cannot make myself to realize..
I cannot accept the reality!

Frustrated..

Ish, I hated it.

I cannot believe I woke up at 7.30 and my mum forced me to go to school!
I cannot believe I have to line up everytime when I want to buy food.
I never line up before... now school system very strict...
Never bring book, never pass up bla bla, talk in class potong markah leh..
Cheh.
Now have to pin my hair. Cacat!


Tension. Really. This is madness!
I got 12 homework you know, crazy nia! Still gotta cope with piano theory exam..
Hopefully I won't fail.. I got a friend who took the exam twice. Failed again.
This is driving me crazy man.

But I am loving Rachy's piano concerto^^
At least that music can teman me when I am blue. Really wanted to learn that song..
Sobs... I want to learn Ravel's-- Jeux d'eau too... really nice song leh..
But I really have no time at all... for at least 2 months I never practice classical music for 2 months..
2 MONTHS! So sad.. I focused too much on theory ady.. My teacher nowadays never teach practical.


Really dilemma right now. Can't believe 2009 sucked.


ISH!



---Sealed----

This is boring!

Crap

I just read some of my CG members blog


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I missed church for 3 weeks..

Sad, I miss God, the service, the fellowship, the worship...




Most of all...



I MISS THEM!


My family, gosh, I really miss them.. when I saw Chermaine's blog about the CNY open house thingy... my heart sank.. haha.. I really wanted to go...

But I got seminar that day.. the previous 2 weeks is cos of my cousin's wedding & balik kampung thing....

Gosh I cannot believe I missed three weeks for church service...


I really need to go this week~!


I really love them. They are like family ^^


And...


P/S: Sorry cher.. your pressie haven't give you yet eh.. sad.. cannot see you also...


I heart CG 2008!

Love the leaders even though we split =.=


Hopefully Cherie will consider of changing her mind.. Miss her too..


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